80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 9!

9.Who was your first crush and what made them special?

It had to come up, didn't it? Friiig.
My first real crush was either Anthony or Jesse. Both were around the same time and I can't remember which one I went head over heels for first lol. They were special because, well, they were freaking HOT! Not gonna lie, seen Anthony the other day, he's still got some good looks lol! Anthony was special first because he was nice to me, second because he was hot. Jesse was special first because he was my biathlon team-mate, second because he was super nice, and third because he was pretty beautiful lol. Oh to be 14 again lol What an embarassing year. I hope my child never has to go through that. haha.

80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 8!

8.When was your last food craving, and what did you crave?

My last food craving was....right now haha. Just kidding. It was oh... about a week or so ago. We were having rice and honey garlic ribs for supper one night, I just wasn't sure what night. I craved those ribs all freaking week long until we finally had them. Honey garlic ribs are my absolute favourite food. Ever. I could eat ribs all the time and never ever get bored of them. So long as they are juicy and honey garlic, I'm sold.

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80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 7!

7.What are your religious beliefs? Have they changed, or have they always stayed the same?

My religious beliefs. Thats easy. I love Jesus Christ. Through and through. I always have and I always will. I believe He was born of a virgin's womb who conceived by the Holy Spirit, lived a perfect life, and died on the cross to forgive my sins.
As I thought about this question all day, I couldn't help but think "gee, thats a hard one to answer..." because I was baptized a Catholic, but I haven't attended a Catholic church faithfully since I was a young girl. I have attended numerous churches, the ones I have been faithful to, as much as possible, are the Salvation Army in Charlottetown, PEI, and The Cloverdale Union in Cloverdale, New Brunswick. But then it hit me, it's not a question of what church I go to, or how often I attend really, it's a question of what, or who, do I believe in, and that made the question a heck of a lot easier to answer. I believe in THE ONE. The one who died, and rose again, to forgive my sins almost 2000 years ago. He died for me, and for you. And he lives for me and you now. Someday, he will come back for us and take us to live with him, and his father, God, in heaven, in the mansion that he has created for us.

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80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 6!

6.If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be, and what would you do if later on you changed your mind?

Thats easy. My personality when I'm with my parents. When I'm away from them, I can be the sweetest girl you ever knew. But when I'm home with them, I snap and growl and spazz at them for sometimes even just speaking. I don't mean to, and I try not to, but it just happens. My mom will tell me "if you try, you can change" but in all fairness, I *do* try, really really hard. I don't like being this way, but no matter what I tell myself, or do tom make myself be kinder, I always revert back to my old ways before long. If I could honestly change the way I am towards them, and *stay* that way, I so would. I hate being mean and rude like I am because I know it hurts them, but I just don't know what to do to make myself change permanently.

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80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 5!

5.List your bad habits and/or addictions and what you have tried to rid yourself of them.

I'm only going to list one of my bad habits on here because all the other ones that come to mind, I don't feel the world needs to delve THAT far into my life. =)
So, my bad habit is how much I HATE to clean my room. Legit. Any other room in the house, I don't mind cleaning, but cleaning my room just makes me want to throw everything I own out. And I have a bitch of a time KEEPING it clean. Not for lack of trying, oh no, I try to keep it clean, but, I dunno, I guess my room is *my* space to be *my* dis-organised self, and it just falls into a messy state before I even know it. The rest of my house though, I hate it being messy. Right now I'm trying to move into my basement, but over the years it has become somewhat of a disaster, and it's driving me up the wall because it is so messy. I get so overwhelmed by the untidiness of it that it takes me forever to accomplish anything, which pisses me off because it's not clean. But my room, it almost seems like it *has* to be messy in order for it to be *my* room.

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80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 4!

4.What music album would be used for a movie about your life?

First off. Wow. I've blogged 4 days in a row. That's gotta be some kind of record for me haha.
Now to answer the question.
I don't think I could pick any specific album off the top of my head to be used as a soundtrack for said movie. So, I'm just gonna say that a combined bunch of songs from Stompin' Tom could be thrown together to become this album to use to go with my life story haha. I'm absolutely in love with Stompin' Tom's music and the right song of his always seems to find its way to me at the right moment. His songs always strike a chord in my heart and fit my life just perfectly when I find them, or rather, when they find me, because I believe that what you need at any given moment of your life (and not what *we* feel we need, but what *God* feels we need) will find its way to us at that moment. And maybe if we threw in a song or two from Johnny Cash and maybe Loretta Lynn too, the album would be perfectly complete. Hmm, maybe I should make such an album and post the song list on here to describe my life. Well, maybe not life, perhaps year.. I'll work on it and get back to you all on this matter.
Chow!
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80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 3!

3.Name a totally useless possession and how you came to acquire it.

I pondered this question all day, and I came up with several different answers, but each time I came to write this blog post, I magically came up with a useful reason for my owning this particular item. So, it being the end of the day, and I still haven't legitimately come up with an answer to this topic, I'm going to throw in some humour for an answer.
Acne and Fat. Two very useless items that have attached themselves to me and seem to be clinging on for dear life. No matter what I try, no matter what cream or acne medication I use, I can NOT get rid of it for any great length of time. I hate it. It is useless and completely pointless. Same goes for the fat. One day, it wasn't there. next day, BOOM! there she was by's. I have done just about everything but become anorexic to lose this damned fat. Yet here it stays. Splattered about my body. Clinging on for dear life. I am SO not a fan.

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80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 2!

2.What 5 websites do you visit often, and why?

The top 5 websites that I visit most often are
1-Facebook
2-Hotmail
3-Dear Blank, Please Blank
4- Google
5- Youtube

I listed Facebook because I spend soo much time on there. I'm addicted. Which is rather ironic, because I hate Facebook. I find it such a pathetic waste of time and a place where a lot of people go just to garner attention. But yet I'm inexplicably drawn to go on it. AlL THE TIME! :(
Hotmail is on this list, well, because I have to check my email several times a day haha. Why I don't know, it's not like I'm waiting for an email from the Queen or something. It's like facebook in a way, I've just got to go on it.
Dear Blank, Please Blank is retarded but funny. I've spent a lot of time on it lately reading through the posts. Some I can relate to, others make me go "WTF?" and still some make me laugh. Which is good, everybody needs to laugh.
Google... God. so addicted to them too. I'm an internet junkie I guess.. I use google to look up important (or not so important things) like, if one of my fishes (I have 4 lol) is acting odd, I'll google to see what could possibly be the matter, and how to remedy it before it dies.
As for Youtube, I just plain old love music. I have to always be listening to music or I go crazy. Youtube helps with that addiction!

Man, With all these addictions, perhaps I should go to rehab?
You might have noticed blogger is not on my top 5. I didn't forget about it haha, its just probably my number 6 most visted website. Close, but no cigar amigo. Perhaps in a little while it will move up a slot or two. =)


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First Letter!

Hello All!
Today I recieved my first letter from Loukmane. (For those of you who don't know, I started sponsoring him on Thanksgiving of this year.) This is by far the best Christmas present I've ever gotten! I love letters!!!
It reads:

Dear Lisa Keough
Loukmane says he is very glad to write his letter to you. He says his family thank you for sponsoring him. He says he live with his adoptive mother call Hien Masai who is a housewife. He says his mother Awa Duedraoga lives in the village and his father Idrissa is a farmer in Ivory Coast. He says he has brothers and halves-sisters. He says his uncle who is their neighbour help them in case of emergency. He wants to know your family members? He is asking you to pray for his family health andhis school. May God Bless you!

80 Days of Blogging Challenge, Day 1!

1.Name something you lost or gave away that can never be replaced.

Something that I have lost or gave away that can never be replaced... hm. Well, that's an easy one. My cat Lucky. I "lost" her in September of 2010. She was 17 1/2 years old and my best friend. I still miss her every day and wish she could still be here to do the things we used to do together. Sometimes I find myself forgetting that she is gone and I'll think "oh I should go get Lucky so I can do this with her." and then it hits me she is gone. Or somebody will come through my cash with a toy that she particularly liked and I'm tempted to say "my cat LOVES that toy! I bet yours will too!" instead of "my cat really loved that toy when she was alive." I miss her soo much, but I know she is waiting for me at Rainbow Bridge, and someday I'll be able to hold her again.

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80 Days of Blogging Challenge!

Hello! Today I am going to start something new in hopes of making myself a more faithful blogger. It is something I found while "stumbling" lol. It's 80 Blog topics and I'm going to challenge myself to blog once a day using these topics. Since it's Copyrighted I'll be posting the link at the bottom of each blog (if I forget sometimes, please somebody remind me! Can't afford to get in trouble ;) lol) So, without further adieu, here is the link for the 80 Journal Writing Prompts!
www.tomslatin.com/80-journal-writing-prompts/

Third Letter!!

Today I have determined that with each new letter I get from Joel, I will be just as excited to read it as I was with the first one. Today I got my third letter from Joel. What a cutie he is! :D

Dear Lisa Keough
It is with a great joy that I am writing you this letter, to give you my news, those of my family and hear from you.
I am fine, my family too-How are you? Is it raining where you live now?
Here people started working on their farms, because it rains- when it stops raining here, the weather is nice - whats the weather like where you live? All my family is greeting you - please, pray for my parents activities.
Be Blessed.

This letter took me longer to read than the others as the person who translated this one was quite sloppy. I do wish the translators had the handwriting of his companion, Lucienne. Such neat writing they have. But I appreciate the translators work, even if they a sloppy sometimes. Cause I sure can't read french lol
That is all for tonight. I will try to update my blog again soon! =)

LMK Photography

Hey!
If anybody out there in this big world wide web actually reads my slice of mind now and then, you should check out my new blog especially for my photography!! Tonight I will start to upload a few of the many images I have (and will have) to put on display =)
Just do it!!

xox- Lisa & Pepsi

I Fell in Love Again Last Night

Hello!!!
As some of you may know, I am now the proud mama of a new little fur-baby. A precious little black and white, blue-eyed kitten named Pepsi. Yes, Pepsi, lol. Until September she is staying out to my Uncle's barn as I don't think a kitten who's not litterbox trained, and a camper-trailer will mix well haha.
Last night, I went to see my baby. She had just finished her supper and like any other baby I've met, belly full of milk = nap time. But I wanted her to get used to my scent, so I scooped her out of her box and carried her down to the house where I sat on the couch next to the other sleeping baby (Jaydee) and while the two peacefully slumbered, one on my lap, the other at my side, a warm fuzzy feeling overtook me (No, she didnt pee on my lap!) My heart began to melt. And melt some more. And when my precious little Pepsi began to purr, it melted some more, and this tiny little creature (too tiny to even fit a kitten's collar) stole my heart away in the palm of her - er - in the pads of her paws.
Even as I carried her up the road, past the big dogs barking, the sheep baaaing, the donkeys braying and the cars speeding past, she slept contentedly nestled in the crook of my elbow, on one tiny little paw strewn over the side of my arm, tail beside moving to my steps. She woke up long enough to be passed around between my Gram, my Aunt and (Almost) Uncle, and my mom for introductions. Then, in the safety of her surrogate mama's arm, she quickly fell asleep again.
Little Pepsi is so much different than my Lucky was. She is happy to rest in my arms, where Lucky would rather sleep on my clothes, safely on the floor. And where Lucky would have cried, Pepsi was happy just to look up at me.
Back to work --
xox Lisa & Pepsi

Second Letter!!

Helloooo!
Tonight I recieved my second letter from Joel, my sponsored child!! It was posted way back in April (the 24th!) and tonight, July 7th, I recieved it!!! It took a whopping 75 days to travel from that precious little boy's hands in Burkina Faso, to mine in New Brunswick. But it was well worth the wait! :) Though his words may be few, they are genuine and innocent as children should be. This little child, on the other side of the world, who has never met me, genuinely cares about how I am. I love it. :) Anyways, here is the letter :)

Dear Lisa Keough,
It's a great pleasure for me to write this letter to you. My family and I are well. How are you doing? How are your activities going? It'll soon be Easter I'll go to church on that day and we'll sing and dance. mom will cook some rice with fire. i'll also go to wish my friends and wish them a happy Easter celebration. what will you eat on Easter day? I wish you a happy Easter day
bye!


I feel really guilty for not writing to him for so long, so tonight I'm going to publicly post my promise to write to little Joel at least once a month. Even if it is only a short little note. He shows his love for me though his letters, I need to show mine for him, through my letters.

SPRING!

Spring has sprung in the county :D it is so nice to look out my window and see only green grass instead of white snow. lol But alas! with this spring comes yet another election. Now, if you know me, you know I think politics are the most retarded thing ever. I think its just a bunch of overgrown kids who need to grow up and work together for our country. But, even though I may think them stupid, I also think its very important to vote. So get out there on Monday, and check that little box on the ballot. Just do it ;)

To "Luke" (lucky)

I found this when I was going through a bunch of my old school work. I vividly remember drawing this in Grade one. Miss Carson's class. I was sitting in the back of the room, in the corner. This is how big of an impact my baby made on my life, that I would remember doing this simple little drawing. I even remember why I spelled her name wrong. I wanted to make it "different" than just the regular spelling of Lucky. I wanted it to be special, like she was.

Stupid Idea? Love.

So, tonight, I did something stupid. I added my brother to my facebook. Except he doesn't know it's me because I used my old account with my fake name. (Well, if he reads this, he knows now..) I only added him really because I can never remember if his birthday is on the 17th 18th or 19th. I was pretty sure it was the 18th, but to be sure, I added him. As I 'stalked' him a little tonight, I happened upon pictures of my nieces, who I'm not allowed to talk to. I was hurting already from the stupidness of not being allowed to communicate with them, and looking at their pictures sure as hell didn't help my pain any. In fact, it only made it hurt worse. I want so badly to resolve things between my brother and I (I'm not ready to make nice with Cindy yet..) so I can talk to my nieces, but I'm still so mad at him. I get soo frustrated when I remember what he told me and what he did to me, but when I look at Madison and Amanda, I want to get to know them, and the strength of my love for them overcomes the anger I feel towards my brother. I'm lost for what I should do. I know the Bible says to forgive, and I have, but I just haven't told him that yet. If only there were some way I could talk to my girls without their parents knowing, even if it were just long enough to tell them how much their Grampie and I love them, no matter what their parents say. Because if Cindy had her way, the girls would hate me. The thought of that crushes my soul. I don't know what I would do if the girls hated me, its hard enough to know that they are being told that I hate them and that there is nothing I can do about it.
I just need them to know how much I love them, and that no matter what, I always will.

FIRST LETTER! :D

Today I received my first letter from my sponsored child, Joel. I was sooo excited i ripped the envelope open right there at the mailbox! :P It was a simple little letter, not long, but it was said with love. (he's six. he cant write yet :P so he dictates his letters) and at the end was a cute little drawing. Of what, I'm not sure, but it was cute just the same because it was drawn specifically for me :D
No word of a lie, when I read the words he said to me, my heart swelled up at least a dozen times its size.

I am very happy to be sponsored! Thanks for choosing me. I am very well, my family too. My dad is called Jeremie, he is a farmer. My mother is called Madeline she is a housewife. I have two big sisters called Marceline and Celine. I do not have the age to go to school yet. I often help my dad to take care of the poultry. What is your job? Are you married? Please pray for my parents and also for my big sister Celine's school. May God Bless you!
Bye!

like I said, short. But pretty danged adorable. :) I look forward to building a relationship with this adorable little boy and hearing from him as he grows. And hopefully (fingers crossed) being able to correspond with him with out a translator (meaning I have to actually learn french :P)

Just thought I'd share with the world :) goodnight and God Bless :)

Opening Up

Alright, I'm opening my blog to the public, finally. After over a year of me not-so-faithfully writing in it, I'm going to share my inner thoughts (lol!) with the general public haha. I should have lots to blog about tonight, depends on how long I feel like typing for though haha.
So, without further adieu, I'll get started on my blog for tonight.
First off, I started to sponsor a little boy from Burkina Faso named Joel Nakoulma. He is six years old and I'm very excited to start my relationship with him and to learn about him and know him as he grows physically, mentally, and in his faith.
Next, I have been searching, for some time now, for a cozy little house for me to move into and call my own. I found one tonight. Showed it to my parents who said they would take a look this week. I was pumped. On cloud 9. Thrilled. And just about everything in the book. Till they said they would give Gaynelle a call. Gaynelle, being my cousin. I was like "um. wtf do you need to call her for?" to which they replied, she wants to rent from us. I was LIVID, and promptly flipped out at them. "So, I've been wasting my time, looking for a house for SOMEONE ELSE to live in? You've GOT to be joking." They weren't. Countless nights I have laid in bed, searching for a house that was close by and cheap and well, perfect for me. And all this time I've really been looking for Gaynelle. Not impressed.
Third, I called out John's girlfriend Cindy, about their little "joke" they played on me. She meant every word she said. So I said, great, well, have a good life, bitch. Then I messaged my brother, and informed him that I had had my heart broken one too many times by him, and I would no longer be dealing with the bullshit he pours out at me, and until further notice, I am an only child. *Please submit all applications to be my new big brother to my facebook account :) Rules are as follows: you must not break my heart, you must not say nasty things about my family, you must act like a big brother and not like a 24/7 asshole.*
Fourth, I am planning on breeding my rabbit, Thumper this summer and I am a) looking for a suitable buck to breed her with, and b) looking to see how many people would possibly be interested in a bunny :) Thumper may possibly be up for sale after the breeding and birth as I am looking for a tamer pet who allows me to handle it. ( I need a cuddle buddy)

One Cruel Joke

So, for the last two months-ish, my brother and his girlfriend have been playing one horribly cruel joke on me, and I felt I had to blog about it to "get it off my chest" per say. Around November 22nd ish, John's girlfriend, Cindy, messaged me bitching about me consoling what I believed to be my brother's broken heart. He was upset (or so I thought) and had said she was gay, and Cindy thought that I believed she was. So she decided I wouldn't be allowed to be a part of the twin's lives anymore (the twins being my nieces.) and nor could my father, and she proceeded to speak cruel words about my father. I replied and tried to be gentle in my words, in hopes that whatever I had said or done to vex her would be forgiven. It didn't happen. We fought for a few days, her with nasty words, me with gentle words and ending with God Bless you, trying to soften her heart a little. Eventually I became angry and vexed at her myself and threatened to make sure all dad's friends could see the words she had written about him, and had their chance to say cruel things about her. I never followed through with my threat because I didn't want to become like her. She then blocked me, from her profile as well as her childrens accounts, which made me heartbroken to know that I couldn't talk to my nieces whenever I chose.
I continued to talk to my brother through this, and we had our fights, and on Wednesday, he deleted me as a friend on facebook, after I confronted him about his relationship status as being "It's complicated" and he responded with he was only looking for sex. When I growled at him for deleting me, he told me to relax, that this whole thing was just a joke, and that he and Cindy were just peachy.
That hurt me deep. I couldn't, and still can't, understand why someone would do that, and how they found that process funny, when I had to suffer so badly.
Tonight I confronted my brother about the matter, but he has yet to respond. TOmorrow I will go after Cindy, as I feel I deserve and explanation for all this nonsense.